Bullying

Someone help me with school please...?
started a new school last year and it went well for me for the most part. I've had few friends and very good grades in my class. Theres been a few or so times I cried in class, but it all ended well. Halfway through this year my friends stopped talking to me because I was quiet and intellectual, and I decided to quit our friendship since they told me '' Wtf'' when I expressed my words naturally. They hid my face with makeup because they said I would look pretty. I don't have contempt for them but I needed to act true for myself no matter what would happen next. The girls are stuck-up and hang tight together with their headbands and bright clothing; the boys have been through puberty and hang out pretty tight with their own group and yell out in their deep voices. One of the boys who I befriended when I was little made me eat paper last year and supposedly had put a scab in my lunch. I forgave them fully of course but my strong sensitivity made me be pushed around, treated like an object, ignored and forgotten of this school year. My grades dropped from pretty much straight A's last year to C+'s and B's and I really feel like I don't care anymore. I admit I envied a few of those boys who got Principals List but I'm trying to move on from everything and have confidence in myself more. I feel lonely and sad, like it's my fault for this and how I was never assertive enough towards my past bullies. I made a friend this year that I trusted and hoped would last but she turned on me later and told me to shut the **** up and leave her alone. I stayed away from her, after all I already sobbed on the swings when she sweared at me before and I was recently called disgusting because of a juice stain on my pants by my group of classmates. Today I gave up my swing when that other class came outside and I hid in the bush for the rest of the day. I have high ambitions for high school next year, I want to start over and earn straight A's and even a Top Student Award because of my secret passions I will reveal . It will kill me inside if I don't get it and I'll be left out in the dark. I figure to myself when I'm really down that it will probably be that boy who is very popular and straight A student who will get it. Who cares about me, I'm loosing ground. I want to have friends but I'm shy and decided I've been hurt and been taken advantage of too many times. I designed something in my head beyond all those groups like an Ipod compared to a phone. I read an article about kids with Aspergers and although I wasn't diagnosed I related to them because I used to have this obsessive interest with Tigers and sensitivity with people, my senses, and my antisocial tendencies as well as how I notice tiny differences with everyone profoundly. High School is in 4 months and I'm beginning preparation now. I'm tired of staying in a counselors office and being treated like I barely exist. I wish the best for everyone, but I want someones guidance who provides me wisdom. Thank you.

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I need guidance with school?
tarted a new school last year and it went well for me for the most part. I've had few friends and very good grades in my class. Theres been a few or so times I cried in class, but it all ended well. Halfway through this year my friends stopped talking to me because I was quiet and intellectual, and I decided to quit our friendship since they told me '' Wtf'' when I expressed my words naturally. They hid my face with makeup because they said I would look pretty. I don't have contempt for them but I needed to act true for myself no matter what would happen next. The girls are stuck-up and hang tight together with their headbands and bright clothing; the boys have been through puberty and hang out pretty tight with their own group and yell out in their deep voices. One of the boys who I befriended when I was little made me eat paper last year and supposedly had put a scab in my lunch. I forgave them fully of course but my strong sensitivity made me be pushed around, treated like an object, ignored and forgotten of this school year. My grades dropped from pretty much straight A's last year to C+'s and B's and I really feel like I don't care anymore. I admit I envied a few of those boys who got Principals List but I'm trying to move on from everything and have confidence in myself more. I feel lonely and sad, like it's my fault for this and how I was never assertive enough towards my past bullies. I made a friend this year that I trusted and hoped would last but she turned on me later and told me to shut the **** up and leave her alone. I stayed away from her, after all I already sobbed on the swings when she sweared at me before and I was recently called disgusting because of a juice stain on my pants by my group of classmates. Today I gave up my swing when that other class came outside and I hid in the bush for the rest of the day. I have high ambitions for high school next year, I want to start over and earn straight A's and even a Top Student Award because of my secret passions I will reveal . It will kill me inside if I don't get it and I'll be left out in the dark. I figure to myself when I'm really down that it will probably be that boy who is very popular and straight A student who will get it. Who cares about me, I'm loosing ground. I want to have friends but I'm shy and decided I've been hurt and been taken advantage of too many times. I designed something in my head beyond all those groups like an Ipod compared to a phone. I read an article about kids with Aspergers and although I wasn't diagnosed I related to them because I used to have this obsessive interest with Tigers and sensitivity with people, my senses, and my antisocial tendencies as well as how I notice tiny differences with everyone profoundly. High School is in 4 months and I'm beginning preparation now. I'm tired of staying in a counselors office and being treated like I barely exist. I wish the best for everyone, but I want someones guidance who provides me wisdom. Thank you.

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help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?
hi so im 14 girl i never eat a lot i always throw up after i eat i self harm. i weigh 89lbs im 5'3(witch is extremly short i bullied by t hat very badly) im constantly sad... like im happy around my friends but if they say the wrong thing i snap into a bad mood. my family says im fat. they call me short. they never have loved me. when i look in the mirror i see...a fat ugly girl whos a monster. i started to worry about my weight when i was 8. then did nothing until i was 12. i started cutting when i was 11. i also bite my finger nails witch i need help with. sometimes i think itd be better if i was dead. my family and friends sometimes see my cuts but i just say the cat did it. i would tell a friend but theyd hate me... HELPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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